Thursday, April 30, 2009

WW Weigh in, Crappy week 13

Previous Weight: 170.4
Current Weight: 171.8
Lost this week: +1.4
Total lost: 7.6

Gah! I should know better than to take a week off from the gym, and two days off from tracking. Oh well, this is a new week. I just need to lose at least the 1.4 and then some, so when I go back to my regular meeting I won't feel like a big old failure.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

National Infertility Awareness Week

I wasn't going to post anything about NIAW. Sometimes I feel like I think about it way too much, so I actually avoid talking about it. But I know that keeping it to myself keeps it a "dirty" word, you know? Awareness is a beginning. So I thought I would share my favorite blog post that I have read several times in several blogs. IMO it cannot be shared enough. I wish I could share this with my MIL.

Paraplegic vs. Infertile

So, what do you think people would say to you if you were paraplegic instead of infertile?(author unknown)

1. As soon as you buy a wheelchair, I bet you’ll be able to walk again!
2. You can’t use your legs? Boy, I wish I was paralyzed. I get so tired of walking, and if I were paralyzed I wouldn’t have to walk anywhere!
3. My cousin was paralyzed but she started shaving her legs in the other direction and she could walk again. You should try that.
4. I guess God just didn’t mean for you to be able to walk.
5. Oh, I know exactly how you feel, because I have an ingrown toenail.
6. Sorry, we don’t cover treatment for paraplegia, because it’s not a life-threatening illness.
7. So… when are *you* going to start walking?
8. Oh, I have just the opposite problem. I have to walk walk walk - everywhere I go!
9. But don’t you *want* to walk?
10. You’re just trying too hard. Relax and you’ll be able to walk.
11. You’re so lucky… think of the money you save on shoes.
12. I don’t know why you’re being so selfish. You should at least be happy that *I* can walk.
13. I hope you don’t try those anti-paralysis drugs. They sometimes make people run too fast and they get hurt.
14. Look at those people hiking… doesn’t that make you want to hike?
15. Just relax, you’ll be walking in no time.
16. Oh do my legs hurt, I was walking and walking and going up and down the stairs all day.
17. I broke my leg skiing, and was on crutches for weeks, and was worried I’d have a permanent limp, but I’m 100% healed.
18. I’d ask you to be in my wedding party but the wheelchair will look out of place at the altar.
19. You’re being selfish, not coming on the hike with us, and looking at all of my track & field trophies.
20. Don’t complain, you get all the good parking places.
21. If you just lose weight your legs will work again.
22. If you would just have more sex, you could walk!
23. You don’t know how to walk? What’s wrong with you? Here let a real man show you how to walk!
24. You are just trying too hard to walk. Give up, and then you’ll walk.
25. Here, touch my legs, then you’ll walk!
26. Just take a vacation, and the stress-break will be sure to get you walking!
27. When *we* were young we only had to worry about having to walk too much.
28. And I bet a paraplegic going to a bookstore doesn’t find books about paralysis stacked next to all the books on running…

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Cycle 14

Gotta laugh at it!

Monday, April 27, 2009

And just when I thought I was on a roll...

I have a bad weekend on both the eating and exercise fronts!

I have nothing to say for myself, other than I had the best of intentions and I did try to keep it under control. *sigh*

I should have worked out. I should have kept the eating under control. Eating tacos until I literally hurt was NOT the best idea. I'm feeling tired and in the dumps, and while I am sure working out would help, I just can't motivate to do it.

I guess I better make a valiant effort to track all the eating I did, and see what the damage is. That helped me last week, right?

Thursday, April 23, 2009

WW Weigh In, Week 12

I was really hoping to have at least a 1 pound weight loss this week, so I could hit my 5% goal at my regular meeting, since I would be at a different meeting next week.

Previous Weight: 171.4
Current Weight: 170.4
Lost this week: 1.0
Total lost: 9.0

WOOT!!! I was really nervous because of the horrible eating and drinking I did for last weeks' HH week. It was bad, but I worked my ass off in the gym the rest of the week and burned off the calories I consumed, and then some. Yay!! I am really starting to feel like I can do this! My next goal is another 9 pounds, another 5%, and I plan to meet this goal by the 4th of July. Back to work for me I guess! LOL

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

I figured out why I hate my job

I feel completely used up. I once loved my job. But when five different people are constantly asking for reports that never match up with what they have, when they constantly fudge numbers and expect me to know what they are doing, when the projects change on a daily basis, and the workload increases every week, I get tired. Just being at work is physically exhausting. I'm salaried and there is no comp time, so all the OT I put in doesn't benefit me in any way. We aren't allowed to expense anything now, so I don't get reimbursed for the driving I do and the things I purchase. And the measly 5 holidays a year aren't enough to refresh me. In fact, I am constantly draining my vacation to zero because I want to take an extra day off here or there. Maybe I wouldn't need those days if I didn't work 50% of the weekends in a year, and an average of two late nights a week, plus all the holidays most people take for granted.

Yeah, I'm whining, I should be thankful I have a job, yada yada yada. Whatever. Even the extra hours and lack of time off would be bearable IF I didn't have to work with a bunch of people that can't communicate and figure out WTF they need me to do? Everyone has a different opinion on how things should be done, but have no explanations why the interdepartmental communication is so broken. Hell, what and how they want me to do things changes daily. And of course, about 30% of what they want or need me to do isn't communicated at all until it's not done "right". Seriously, what am I supposed to do? I am not a mind reader. I don't have time for this shit to begin with now that I have 400% more work than I did last summer, and my workload has doubled in the last week. And trying to explain reasonably simple things to people who have more power and make more money is fucking exhausting. Especially when they never understand it. It makes me wonder how they got their job in the first place.

I have a pile of crap I am supposed to be doing, and it makes me just tired. I'm over it. I'm exhausted. I can't even face another second of it. Maybe lightning will strike my building so I can go home and relax for one afternoon. Please?

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Margarita happiness and HH awesomeness

Last week was Happy Hour Week in the OC, and I had a busy week at work so I had no time to participate. That is, until the weekend came! Fortunately for me many of the locations were still doing Happy Hour all day on SATURDAY! So Saturday afternoon, H and I made our way to Laguna Beach's El Callejon!

I had no idea what or where El Callejon was, but H had seen it before and knew it was in the old Javier's location. Thank goodness, because if it wasn't for his persistence, I would have never enjoyed the wonder that is El Callejon.

The margaritas are the SHIT, people. I haven't had a Margarita this good since we were in Cabo last year. Lime juice and tequila - that's all you need. Traditional, the way it should be! I don't like the Margaritas too sweet though, so if you like that syrupy mix, go elsewhere. And they were $3.75 each. Yes, you read that right.

We also tried some of their food offerings (the ones on the HH menu in the cantina, and yes, if I were a good food blogger I would have had my camera and have taken pictures. But I'm not, so I didn't.

The salsa was delicious, and they served both a fresh red salsa as well as salsa verde. The Al Pastor Tacos were nice and spicy with great flavor and served with pineapple - YUM. They also came in chicken as well as pork. I only tried the pork, but I'm sure the chicken was good too. Those were $1.25 each. We also tried the Red Snapper Ceviche - delicious and rich, served with the traditional saltines, but was even better on the Tortilla chips. H got a shrimp cocktail as well - flavors were good but I have an aversion to shrimp so I only tried a couple bites.

We sucked down many margaritas (five, maybe six between us?), ate our weight in chips, salsa, Al Pastor tacos, and Mariscos, and our bill was like $36. Of course, now that Happy Hour week is over, the prices are now up, and to get the HH pricing, you have to be there between 3:00 and 6:00 pm, Monday - Friday. So I either get a new job, or I can't go for HH again until I call in sick. We did look at their dinner menu as well, and it looked REALLY good. I can't wait to go there again!

Of course, I also kinda blew the diet that day. ::cries:: As of Monday I was negative 21 points, which means to stay on track with Weight Watchers, I would have burn 2100 calories through exercise before the end of day on Wednesday. Well, so far I have burned 1100, so only 1000 more to go! LOL I am going for a run tonight, so I hope to have done this, and I am also hoping for at least another pound of weight loss to I will hit my 5% weight loss goal on Thursday!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

WW Weigh in, Week 11

I can't believe it's been 11 weeks already. And it's kinda sad that I am not even losing a pound a week. It feels like it's taking forever. ::sigh::

Previous Weight: 172.8
Current Weight: 171.4
Lost this week: 1.4
Total lost: 8.0

Not bad, but I wonder if I can really keep this going. Which brings me to my next weight loss topic that I started thinking about when I was watching the Biggest Loser this week: I don't really like healthy food. Ok, well, that's not exactly true - I love so many things that are healthy, all kinds of fruits and veggies, olive oil, fish, nuts, oatmeal. But I also like tortillas, cheese, cream, french fries, bread and the like. I don't know that I will ever get to the point where I don't like these foods any more. I'm sure I would lose weight a lot faster if I didn't eat these things.

I'm sure I would also lose weight faster if I didn't enjoy the FULL feeling. Satisfied just doesn't cut it for me. I have tried to counteract this with drinking a glass of milk before every dinner and making sure I always get two helpings of salad before I go for a second helping of anything else. But I still struggle. Coming up this weekend is my monthly celebrated El Torito Brunch with the 606 Mafia. I will have to plan this calculated binge carefully to stay on track.

All I know is when I get to my goal weight, I will have to continue to work out like a madwoman and still count 80% of the time to stay on target. I really hope that I can get there on WW because I would really like to become lifetime. I know I am going to need that kind of commitment and support to stay at my goal for the rest of my life.

Add me to the DSLR club roster

When I was in Seattle, I mentioned to my avid photographer mom that I really wanted a DSLR camera someday. She immediately told me I could have her old Olympus Camedia E20! Now, this sucker is old. And clumsy. And has major issues. The thing takes forever to power up, to save images, and only shoots in 5 megapixel. It also overexposes images a bit and sucks down batteries like a fiend. Last, it doesn't have a usb port, so I have to buy a card reader in order to even get my pictures off of it! BUT the price was RIGHT! Thanks Mommie!

Now I have to figure out how to use the fucker. LOL. Maybe I should sign up for a photography class!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Makeup Reviews

CVS was having a BOGO sales on Maybelline cosmetics, I had coupons and also Bonus Bucks! So I gave their Dream Liquid™ Mousse

and XXL Extensions™ XX-TREME LENGTH Microfiber Mascara

a try.

The Dream Liquid Mousse foundation wasn't bad! It blended well and felt lighter than the Dream Matte Mousse makeup (which I hated - it felt thick and heavy and didn't blend well at all). After 8 hours of work the finish was a little shiny, but not horrible, nor did it collect in my pores or cake up which is a huge plus for me! B+

The XXL Extensions™ XX-TREME LENGTH Microfiber Mascara was interesting. I have used mascara with a base coat before, but the base coat usually makes your lashes look clumpy and impossibly thick. My lashes actually stayed at a reasonable thickness and the length was great. I almost felt like I had false lashes on - not the crappy ones in strips, but the awesome individual ones. The best part is that my eyelashes feel pretty natural - soft, not stiff or sticky. They do flake a small amount, but not so much that anyone but me noticed. No bits of mascara under my eyes or anything. A-

And they were a bargain. The mascara was $9.95 - 50% - $1.00 coupon. Final price = $3.98. The foundation was $9.95 - 50% - $3.00 coupon. Final price = $1.97!!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I have to get this off my chest

I am BITTER that my SIL is knocked-the-fuck-up. BITTER I tell you. I can't get over it. It doesn't help that I think she is totally superficial, obnoxious, and irresponsible. It also doesn't help that the more I get to know her, the less I trust her. I personally think her priorities are whacked and I am afraid to see how her child turns out.

But then I find out that she has been rude to my family at the only two events she has been in contact with them. And not just rude to my family, rude to my MOTHER. At my two wedding events! WTF? Who does this?

I have gotten the distinct feeling that she has been constantly trying to compete with me, but I couldn't put my finger on any one thing. I still can't, but out of the blue my mom brought it up, and she didn't even know all the things that have happened. This girl is all about the competition in all aspects of her life. She cheats at freaking board games FFS! Well, if she wants a competition for the title of "Biggest Douche" she can look elsewhere. I'm over her and her stupidity.

Monday, April 13, 2009

I have an issue

with food in a social setting. I realize a lot of people have this issue, but if I am going to get past this plateau of mine, I'm going to have to figure this out. I also seem to have issues saying no to people more than once. I say no (I always say no the first time!) and then they push harder, and I give in. I think it's some inherent need to please combined with my weakness for high fat yummy food. Plus the fact that I get depressed and turn to food and alcohol to make myself feel better. The whole time I am inhaling these things that are NOT on the WW plan, I think "Stop! Spit it out! Throw the rest of it away!" but I don't listen.

I sure hope the first step is acknowledgment, because that might mean I am one step closer to beating this issue I have.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Earth and Ocean (Seattle part 4)

My last day in Seattle. I was sad. Not just because I was leaving my parents, but also because I really love it there so much.

Ferry dock in Kingston, waiting for the ferry to come

We drove through town, the U District, Queen Anne Hill, and more, but the big highlight of the day was to try Earth and Ocean, one of the restaurants participating in Dine Around Seattle. I found this because my friend WeezerMonkey blogged about it not too long ago!

Earth and Ocean is actually connected to the W Hotel. Not that it makes a difference to me either way, but I couldn't help but notice. We actually chose Earth and Ocean mostly because they were one of the few restaurants doing a wine pairing with the $15 prix fixe lunch!

The first course came with the Badger Mountain Chardonnay (Columbia Valley, WA). It was lighter with a bit of acidity and just a touch of oak (if my memory serves - it has been two weeks!)

My husband ordered a Stella

I had a chestnut soup with crispy pancetta, but my photo was blurry. :( It was interesting - slightly sweet but under seasoned. The pancetta didn't add enough to it for my taste. My parents both ordered the dungeness crab fritter with olives, avocado mousse and a bacon vinaigrette, but also felt it was under seasoned. Also, the avocado mouse was weird - I prefer my avocado solid, thank you very much.

H bucked the trend of the prix fixe menu, and ordered the organic greens salad with pickled cauliflower and a lemon cracker ($8). The pickled cauliflower made this salad - not too much vinegar and a lovely mustard flavor.

The entree course came with Firesteed Pinot Noir (Willamette Valley, OR). It was a good solid Pinot with some smokiness and a smooth finish.

I had the Eggplant-Goat Cheese Parcel, Spicy Tomato Mint Sauce, Laccino Olives, Basil Oil. It was very good with plenty of flavor.

My mom had the Fresh Stringozzi, Lamb Ragu, Grana Padano. Such an interesting combination of Chinese Five Spice and italian hard cheese! It was lovely though. The pasta was cooked perfectly, al dente and a little bit chewy.

My dad had the Black Forest Ham and Chicken Schnitzle Sandwich, Dill, Red Onion, Frisee, on sourdough. I didn't make him share, but he enjoyed it thoroughly.

And H, once again bucking the trend, ordered the grilled lamb sausage sandwich, mama lil’s peppers, warm potato salad ($15). I only made him share his warm potato salad which was good, and had more mustard seed as well as pearl onions.

Those of us who got the pre fixe menu also got dessert! No wine pairing for dessert at lunch (BOO!) but I had the Fennel Upside Down Cake, Prune Gelato, Spiced Tuile. The cake was delicious and moist with a delicate flavor and the prune gelato complimented it perfectly.

My parents both got the Carnaroli Rice Pudding, Meyer Lemon Sfinge, with Cardamom Sugar. This was amazing. The rice was cooked perfectly and spiced perfectly, and the candied Meyer lemon stole the show. YUM! This made me want to candy lemons at home. Seriously.

Even though the starters were a little substandard, it was a good lunch and the price was right.

But, if you are visiting Seattle, I would actually recommend just grazing Pike's Place Market instead of going out to lunch. Why? Because after this meal, I was full... and yet I wanted Piroshky Piroshky and Beecher's Mac and Cheese. We also wanted to go to Matt's at the Market, but I hesitate to even go there next time so I don't miss out on the yummies of Pike's Place!

Bye Seattle. I will miss you! Maybe someday I could call you home!

WW Weigh in, Week 10

Previous Weight: 172.8
Current Weight: 172.8
Lost this week: 0.0
Total lost: 6.6

No progress, no slippage. I bought some WW smoothies in an attempt to revitalize my focus.

Hansville (Seattle part 3)

I promise someday I will be caught up on my blogging. Two weeks later and I am still trying to get my Seattle trip finished. ::sigh::

My parents are lucky to live in a suburb of Seattle which is only about an hour away, but feels like the middle of nowhere (in a good way). They have 10 acres and a gorgeous view and access to forested trails and beautiful beaches. This is what Hansville is all about. If you ask most people in Seattle where Hansville is, they probably would not know. If you tell them it's about 15 minutes north of Kingston, they might know. Otherwise you have to say it's at the very north end of the Kitsap Penninsula.

This is the view from their porch:

And the trails on the Hansville Greenway that borders their property:

Buck Lake - there is a boat ramp and a swimming area, and it is adjacent to a park complete with picnic benches and grills for outdoor summer cooking.

Next we took a trip to the beach

We took a walk up these steps

To get better views of the Puget Sound

And the Point No Point Lighthouse

And hiked back to the car (can you see Seattle in the distance?)

On the way we saw this fuzzy little caterpillar

And a close up of the Point No Point lighthouse

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Olympic Penninsula (Seattle Day 2)

Ahhh... its always nice to wake up on vacation! We had a day of sightseeing ahead of us and we weren't about to let a little rainy weather stop us! First we assessed the previous night's damage

And made breakfast consisting of slab bacon

Fresh eggs from my mum's chickens

And waffles with fresh raspberries and blueberries as well as the Tayberry jam we picked up the day before

And we were off! Before heading across the Hood Canal Bridge we stopped off in Port Gamble

And then on to Port Townsend. We drove all the way to the tip of the point to check out the light house and adjoining beaches

And this was my attempt at an artistic photo

On the way back into town, we saw some deer!

We didn't really hang out in the downtown area - we were more interested in tasting some alcoholic beverages, but I did get a couple pictures

Yet another lighthouse - that Strait of Juan de Fuca was treacherous

And stopped at the Port Townsend Brewery, grabbed some pints

And a tasting tray

And went to work

Next we stopped at Eaglemount Winery and Cidery. My dad is way into hard cider and wanted to check them out.

They had a humble and down to earth tasting room

Jim was friendly and helpful and open and poured us some generous tastes. The wine was okay, but the cider was nice and dry, not too sweet! We tried the Ginger Cider and the Semisweet Cider.

And took us on a tour of their pressing room and wine cellar

After we left Eaglemount, we passed Fat Smitty's and I couldn't resist the photo.

And while we drove a little further along the penninsula, we stopped at 7 Cedars Casino to check out their gift shop chock full of beautiful S'Klallam Tribal art. Their casino had great art as well. I don't know if all Native American casinos as like this, as this one was my first, but it was awesome.