Monday, April 25, 2016

2 Pounds Down

Where the eff is my water weight loss? I know I should be happy I lost at all, 2 pounds is as much as I could hope for. Just hoping that's mostly fat and not water weight because I'd really be screwed calorie wise. HAHAHAHA! But seriously, I should be happy I am so tall because I get calories. I feel bad for some of the smaller girls that have to cut so low. I also haven't really changed the way I eat, just tracking more closely and following macros.

I was thinking a lot about my why. What is my motivation? I'm sad to say that I'm currently only motivated by aesthetics (and getting a whole new wardrobe by being able to fit into clothes I haven't warn in years!), which really isn't the best motivation. I do want to get stronger, but I don't have any goals with that regard. I am healthy, I am active, I can walk and hike and my weight doesn't get in the way of my life. I just hate the way I look. That part might not be so healthy.

In the past, I've had another goal to work toward - when I lost the most weight in the past, I was training for a marathon. I'm not in a place where I am interested in that kind of training right now. I'm not really interested in powerlifting or Olympic lifting at this point - not that I won't in the future, but for one, I'm nowhere close to even lifting a competitive weight right now. This is where I can see why so many think they want to compete! The last thing I want to do is put myself on stage to have my body judged. I can't see any way that would help me with my body image! But I can see why so many think that should be their goal - because they have nothing else to work towards to stay motivated. Some sort of competition would be great, I just don't know what kind.

The biggest motivation I have right now is my 10 year anniversary in 17 months. The plan is to go to Mexico for our vow renewal. I would love to 1. Wear my dress again (30 pounds away) and 2. Look AMAZING in my dress, which I didn't really do the first time around. Plus, it's Mexico. It would be nice to actually take photos of the vacation and have wedding photos that I really like the way I look.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Stupid Fitness Gadgets I Must Have

So, there's a race going on. A race to see who will come out with the first and/or best body imaging tool.

Naked 3D versus Shape Scale

The premise is just about the same for each but Naked has an easier to embed video and more information available.


Unfortunately Naked isn't shipping until March 2017 and nobody knows when the Shape Scale is coming out ::sob:: My ass needs this NOW!

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Yup. Still a fat ass.

Hi! Remember me?

The best way to describe it is that I'm suffering from analysis paralysis. I do not want to cut my calories and fat to near starvation levels a la Weight Watchers but I'm also desperate to lose some weight. I'm not going to give up eating whole, natural foods, but at the same time, it's not sustainable forever 100% perfectly. I'm trying not to get overwhelmed with tracking. Sometimes it just seems so pointless with all the variables, but obviously, not tracking hasn't helped, since I put another 10 pounds of pure fat on over the winter.

I've been following the New Rules of Lifting for Women program since the beginning of the year with a nice increase in strength, but no change as far as weight or size is concerned. I just added 22 Minute Hard Corps to the plan as well. It's mostly cardio but I can use a quick daily cardio option to try and burn more calories. They claim results in the eight week program. Can't hurt, right?

I'm going to try to stick to a single calorie and macro goal on the daily. My fear is when we go out to eat/I have an event/etc. I'm going to go over my calories by too much. That's one of the reasons Weight Watchers worked so well for me - planned binges/cheats. I'm also not a fan of tracking vegetables, but I need to if I'm going to be counting calories so exactly... Counting calories and macros is a serious pain in the ass, but this is the ass you get when you don't have a stop mechanism and you don't track. What I wouldn't give to be one of those girls that naturally doesn't eat too much.